There's a feeling of giving up from what i learned.. dont really know i have to be sad or how. everything don seems like i've planned. Dissappointed with my result this time (sigh) thought i will not fail any subject this time. who knows, things happen to be like the way i dont wanted to. Don feel like talking.. Its worse than u lose in a competition. Did i do my best? I dont think so.. everyone was getting better in their exam but not me. WHY? I really wish i have those happy go lucky type of thinking. Envy those are smart. ah.. suddently felt weak in my life.. (SIGH) I always tell myself not to make myself no mood but i still cant make it. It even makes my modd worse nd worse from time to time.. sorry to anyone if my face was really that fierce or what when i look at u when i'm not in the mood... really sorry for that. doesnt mean to look at u by that eye sight.. My mind is blank for now. feeling of throwing myself and give up on studies.. BUT! What to do.. parents will not know wad i'm thinking now. i tried to lessen my mistakes everytime but still.. THE SAME THING GOES OVER AND OVER. STUPID ME. bad day for me. or bad year for me. whats the use of saying so much? i know my marks wont be higher if i write more and more. the bad feeling are always in myself.. those negative thinking when i lose or do not done something very well.. this time i dont know what to do.. will be sitting for the exam next year. new things will be thought next year.. will i be able to achieve good result if i really work hard and study smart? felt my future was dark as charcoal for now..
Stayed in home for the whole day.. ha ha. maybe this can help me not to be that tired after the 3days of competition and the trip going and coming back. First I was planning to go out for a walk with friends but seems like my dad are sleeping, i dont bother him from resting today.. Felt sorry for her cause lied to her that i'm going.. Very sorry~!! Hope she have fun with her friends there.. NOw.. listening to songs with the new mp3 sis bought. Good sound.. Not bad mp3..=x its Creative brand. less to see this brand here. Mostly sold at KL? hmm not really sure. anyway.. today was really bored compared to the last few day.. sis went back and my competition are over.. Sounds like the end of something for me. Feel something missing. sigh.. anyone can tell me what i'm mising now? >.<! dont know what'sbothering my mood this few days. I'll be changing my mood in just few seconds and i dont know whats the reason behind it. SIGH. any medcine to cure bad mood-ness? +_+ i'm the first customer for sure. besides, i'm feeling sleepy now. haha.. tired of thinking what makes me bad mood.. hmm.. blog next time. not feeling well.
I'm just get back Miri from Sibu for the 3 day competition.. For sure.. My team lose. Its ok by the way cause we've learned alot from other teams. They're much more better than us and put more hard work on it. This competition can teach u alot by any aspect when u work or also a big task for u to accomplish by time and done it very well to win.. Currently, we've just take note that we will building an Alumni for F1 in schools competition so that the juniors will be able to win other time in future.. Well, this idea is quite good for the juniors cause they will have hint for the competition and what they shouldn't do when they had joined the competition.. Difference by car design and booth set-up compared to other teams have very much difference.. they have alot of banner and souveniors. That was cool. I just hope my team will not get the last place for the competition.. Anyway.. thanks to the teachers and friends who had helped my team and me alot by any aspect. THANKS YOU ALL~ Although we didnt won, the juniors will have the chance to win for the school. It doesnt matter for me cause they should get the information they need instead of searching for clues in internet or where that other school was just getting hint from their seniors or teacher. The most important thing is that, we should do our thing on our OWN and not asking other people to HELP you DO IT! That is bad when you usually call some experts to do it for you instead of doing it your own using your own mind to think of it. Its useless to complain.. The competition was over... I cant do anything but just doing some research for the juniors.. For the juniors, try ur best to do ur job right. DO NOT DO LAST MINUTE WORK.
Its hard to say... hmm... WE LEFT 4 DAYS TO COMPETITION~ Cars? done.. Stand? Done.. Decorations for booth? havent buy yet... banner?done.. photos?not printed. anything i missing? OH Ya. portfolio?done..(well thanks to Adrian..) Everyone had work hard for this.. Thanks u guys~!~! and.. I'm exhausted! Cant even open my eyes at tuition just now. Luckily the teacher is not angry.. Another thanks for the other team that had helped us and giives us support.. Really appreciate that. Today was easy for me, cause we've almost finish our preparations and not that last minute work.. Although sometimes its hard to communicate with them, they're fun to play and work with.. wanna say something to my team : sorry to be bit harsh sometimes.. thanks for everything u guys did.. its great to work with u guys although i always scold something that are not really that worse. Hope u guys know me well =x.. After some while, i looked at my weakness and my attitude sometime... Its hard to accept something that u, yourself didnt realise that or know that after ppl telling u or mad at u.. sigh. sore throat at this kind of time.. i don hope my voice will be funny when i present it at Sibu or I'll be in dead mode =x forgot to say something.. Caunselling room got rat i think. Cause one of the team member of others complaining.. =.= how that rat survise inside that room? mayb teacher didnt clean the room well when he moved there. hehe.. my eyes is closing down soon.. got to go now.. have to get some rest before i dont have anytime for rest at Sibu.. tata~ ^^ Miss ya~@ haha..
This week will be a busy week for me and not a holiday time.. I have to settle everything up in 4 DAYS! I hate last minute work.. cause it just rushes u to do something really quickly and bad result. Another this is some problem with our team teacher advisor's shirt. What should i do in just this few days or just let it be? sigh... Many problem.... Whole morning and afternoon was not at home.. Feeling really tired on this competition. Need lots of hard work since we are not specialize in this kind of work. IF there are someone to help, I will be very pleasure of it. hehe.. i went searching for some information on the f1 car.. that was really a professional handling the program to draw out the car model and do a tests on it. This is cool~
same as our life. we seem to refresh our past and wanted it to rewind and fix that mistake. Sadly, we could just remember it to be a lesson in our life and part of our lifes.. hmm... I'm quite bored for now and worry on how is the folio progress from my friend.. I wish he can do it.. Besides from that, there's a thing pop out at the bottom part of my eye. >.<! looks more and more ugly already~ =_= anyone have any advice what to do ? Feeling sleepy haiz.. Where is that friend of mine? Called me to online tonight but he didn't online? >.< my poor eye.. that thing pop out really annoys my eye.. @.@ hmm.. just wanna say one last thing 在我眼里你永远最美 ^^
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